Today was the worst day yet but we still know God is in control and watching over mom. Last night she was given Adivan which helped her sleep well and also helped with the nausea and headache. This morning she was really swollen and retaining a good bit of fluid. They started Lasix today which seemed to help with the fluid. After the doc ordered to up the Lasix we saw an immediate increase in output. The doc wants mom to try to move around to help break up the fluid. She took one lap around the floor and when she got back to the room she was very sick. This was the first time she has been sick. In about twenty minutes she was feeling great again. That's the strange thing about Chemo and its side effects. They seem to change every twenty minutes or so. They gave her another dose of Adivan this afternoon because she was so nauseated and it knocked her out. She slept well for several hours. Alicia is staying with her tonight. She text me earlier and said that mom did not eat her dinner. The nurse said this is normal especially in the beginning. The smell alone almost made her sick. They started the night Chemo at nine and it will go for three hours. We will should be getting the results back tomorrow from the Bone Marrow Biopsy. This will give us some valuable information. As soon as we hear we will update.

We are taking it day by day...every minute is different but mom is so strong. I stare at her laying in that bed and wish I could take the pain for her. It kills all of us to see her so sick. This is by far the hardest thing I have ever been through... I never would have thought that this would happen so early for my mom. For several weeks now I have kept asking "why." Why my mom. Any of you who know her knows what a selfless woman she is, always taking care of others and putting everyone before herself. It just does not seem fair. I envision myself stomping up and down like a child screaming "its not fair!!!" And just like a child not getting their way neither do I. I am learning to "let go and let God" but sometimes its so hard. Mom taught me so well to be in control of my surroundings and have things organized and well planned. This time we are all being thrown for a loop. Please continue to keep mom and dad in your prayers. Thank you all so much for your support.